I was sad, I was fat and had completely stopped taking care of myself.
I tend to say this often when thinking of the person I USED to be two years ago.
It’s my constant reminder of how far I’ve come and how badly I never want to be that person ever again.
First You Have to Hit Rock Bottom
Everyone’s rock bottom looks different.
My rock bottom looked overweight, super unhealthy, really sad and I overcompensated with a lot of shopping and a lot of eating.
In 2017, I was working on quitting my very fast pace, very toxic and high stress job.
The staff and I endured a lot of unhealthy office culture not realizing how it was going to keep affecting us years after leaving.
As a result of being in that type of environment, I had lost all confidence in myself developing a toxic habit of really negative thinking.
I didn’t understand how to take accountability yet.
I began to ease my self loathing with lots of food, and I mean a lot of food.
The same way an alcoholic turns to their favorite drink, I too was consistently numbing my sadness with food.
80 pounds later, my future came down to one very real and important question.
Was the money and title at my job really worth sacrificing my happiness?
I’ve now learned that no amount of money is worth me sacrificing even a fraction of my joy and peace.
The decision to regain control of my life and mental health became non negotiable.
I finally made the decision to leave thinking that would be my end all be all, but it was only the beginning of my journey back to healing.
My mind, body, emotions and spirit had taken major blows on a consistent basis and I didn’t even know where or how to begin.
Physically, I was the biggest I’d ever been weighing in at over 200 lbs from eating late night tacos and not exercising for nearly 3 years.
I was starting at ground zero and this was a mental space I had never been in before.
Taking Back Control of My Life with Intermittent Fasting
So I started there. Ground zero.
Slowly but surely I began to show up for myself.
I began going to the gym about 4-5 times a week, getting to know my body all over again at my own pace.
I got to know my new aches and pains, getting intimate and facing the truth of my situation.
My process started slow and it was wasn’t pretty, but it was consistent and that paid off tremendously.
Even though I got a handle on my physical health I was still emotionally and mentally really sad.
Still struggling with taking accountability for my own happiness.
With a lot of practice, I eventually learned how to face my hard truth.
My truth being that I was nowhere near the person I kept painting myself out to be.
It was time to dig deeper and do some REAL work.
Why I Choose Intermittent Fasting
I heard about intermittent fasting throughout my years training as an athlete and all the health benefits.
Intermittent fasting focuses on 6-12 hour windows of not consuming food.
Eating a small nutritional meal 1-2 times a day outside of that fasting window.
I chose to fast from 7:00 pm to 12:00 pm the next day with the first few weeks being crazy hard.
I would have a small coffee to help curb my appetite accompanied by deep self reflecting internal conversations.
This practice completely changed my life.
Intermittent fasting made me more aware of my thoughts.
I had become used to muting my thoughts with eating and intermittent fasting challenged that vise.
I would ask myself questions like,
“Am I really even hungry or am I bored?”
“Do I want a cookie because my anxiety was just triggered or do I really want a cookie?”
I learned to not judge my thoughts but to study them while working to change each self limiting belief.
Changing a belief not easy by any means but it’s possible.
Instead of “white knuckling” through the process, I became intimate and aware of every single thought that passed through my mind.
Examining those thoughts and working to uderstand their origins.
I began to lovingly practice changing my dialogue and everyday routines.
I started making small changes like eating more fruit, cooking at home more often and paying attention to when I actually felt satisfied and not full when I ate.
Doing that literally changing my relationship with food.
Intermittent fasting has been one of the most transformational practices I’ve ever done.
By doing it enough times it becomes easier and easier to stay consistent for longer periods of time.
I don’t miss breakfast or trip out if I miss a meal.
No reacting on impulse as much and it’s one of the most liberating feelings because my emotions are no longer make decisions for me.
The beautiful thing about us humans is we have the ability to rewire our brains so we can continue working on being the absolute best versions of ourselves.
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